MY WISH: END OF USRAH II & GOOD BYE CFS :(

 Assalammualaikum & hi everyone! 😄

As you guys can see from my title, this is the last usrah session for semester 3 which also means, this will be my last entry in this blog :( and, even sadder, as I'm writing this, this week is the last week of me as a CFS IIUM student. Well, it's unofficial because I did not sit for my final exams & receive the results yet but still, I'm already sad 😢 

To be honest, Semester 3 has been a very tough semester. I'm dealing with a lot of things that makes me feel down and demotivated to do anything, which includes, studying. It's not just because of studying that makes me feel this way, throughout semester 3, many things happened. I feel pressured because of my own  expectation of myself. I pushed myself to study and blame myself whenever my tests & quizzes results aren't satisfying.  That's so unhealthy for my mental health 😕 Plus, online learning gets hard sometimes. To communicate with friends regarding the group assignments are pretty stressful 😂 Other than that, I just lost a close family member recently. Like, 3 weeks ago? I don't really want to tell in deep about it because it makes me even sadder. But yeah, overall, those are the reasons why I said semester 3 was so tough & challenging. 

Alhamdulillah, I'm feeling a lot better now. What I do is, I put my faith in Allah. I believe His plans are wayyyy better and perfect. Things don't always go the way we wanted and that's okay. I release the control of my own future and, have faith. Meanwhile for the loss, I just remember the quranic ayah "Indeed we belong to Allah, and indeed to Him we will return." (Surah Al-Baqarah, ayah 156) That's explains it all. 

Coming back to the original topic, my wish? Well it is still the same as before. But, what I would like to add is I just hope that I be able to make it to the course I wanted in degree later on. Honestly, I'm quite worried about not getting the course I wanted at the first place. The thought is already scaring me. But yeah, like I said, I'm just going to put my faith in Allah. After all, He knows what best for me. I will just continue to work hard. It's because I believe, what's supposed to be mine will come, what's meant to be will fall into place, what's right will feel right and I won't have to force it. 

That is it for my last entry. Hope to see you soon in Gombak, InsyaAllah! Amin! 

Ain Adibah